Dancing my emotions on top of a river. That’s me spinning as rain beats all around me. Drenched so that my shirt sticks to my chest one moment and is blown away by wind the next. Dancing as it thunders around me; turbulence is my song.
Dancing my emotions, I take a dive like I’m desperate to sink, only to shoot out of the water like a dolphin sooner or later. Everything about this is thrilling, my lungs burn one moment with salt water and the next with the rush of wind. I live for the thrill, never have I felt so much. I lift my head to the sky, lightning seizes the clouds in response, my grin is wide and the dark reflects on my glistening skin. Everyday this turbulence is new, everyday I know it better.
She said I only listen to sad songs, I told her all I am is sadness. She asked me why, I told her it’s all I know. She couldn’t understand, but I don’t understand either. She left me because she knows better than to dance with a storm. I wished to go after her, but what am I without turbulence? It thundered louder, everyday it is new, everyday I know it better.
You have claimed my life, and in exchange you must give up my bones. Not one must be missing. Rest me on the shores of a beautiful beach where they can find me. They will know me piece by piece, they will know their sea monster was human too, then they will give me a home to rest from all my dancing. No more thrill, no more feeling – no more; just rest.
